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Monday, February 22, 2016

Not Tired

I have to stop myself from making comparisons on my times from day to day and also from year to year.  A year ago, I was pacing in the nine minute per mile range with regularity.  Yesterday, I was lucky to stay below 11 minutes per mile.  As I ran, I kept telling myself that I was not tired, but the truth was faster than my mind-over-matter tricks.  I was running tired. 

Multiple Sclerosis has a laundry list of symptoms that can vary greatly from person to person, but one symptom that seems universal is fatigue.  Each time I feel suppressed, bogged down, even listless during a run, I find myself thinking it must be because of my MS. It's no longer a surprise to me that I often attribute such fatigue to my MS.  But one thing that was surprising during my run yesterday came from one of our newer running team members, Sean.

Sean commented on my complaining of the fatigue after the end of a seven mile run.  He patiently listened to me and then said "remember, you're coming off of an injury." 

Hm! He was right, you know.  And it never even occurred to me to consider my ITB injury as a factor in my fatigue.

Lesson learned: I am too quick retreat into my disease.  Instead of going there, I should either reflect on all of the possible contributors that change in pace, or else just not think about it at all.  Instead, I should enjoy the fact that I can still go out and put down seven miles on a cool Sunday morning with people who will remind me that I still can. 

Thanks Sean!

1 comment:

  1. Thank you for keeping this blog and sharing your journey! I would guess after dealing with the this for as long as you have, it would be difficult to differentiate "normal" fatigue from symptoms of the disease. Way to keep a positive attitude, and good luck with your ITB recovery!